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Blogmas 2: Day 3

Preamble

Welcome to day 3.

How was your day?

How did you fare?

Hope you are well?

I am well and my day was mild.

Let’s dive into today’s reflections ⛲

Discomfort

Discomfort is an uncomfortable feeling. It is feeling out of place.

It can be associated with pain, ache or tiredness.

Discomfort is never a pleasant feeling, it is the opposite.

I have experienced discomfort multiple times and to an extent, quite frequently. This may be partly due to my hypersensitive nature in regards to my environment and my ability to process things deeply (I came to understand this in 2020).

There were times, I could not contain the discomforts and had to check myself in the hospital only to be told I am normal and only had to increase certain nutrients, drink more water or regulate my eating habits.

At the end of the day, it mostly boiled down to taking care of my mind and response to situations happening in my life and environment.

However, last year, I experienced a discomfort that turned out to be more valid than other times. I had simple caries in my teeth and I had to get fillings in them.

Despite being reassured that it was not my eating habit that caused it but other causes that were not completely my fault, I felt very unhappy.

I felt betrayed

But in the spirit of keeping a healthy lifestyle, I continued to maintain a healthy lifestyle with my oral hygiene.

Unfortunately, in the last months of 2019, I had moments where I was unable to maintain the pattern and had a recurrence in another teeth.

So that meant getting another fiiling.

That meant another wave of discomfort

After a while of dealing with the negative emotions and being reassured that the caries were very simple and superficial, I got another filling.

Now, my issue is the discomfort I experience. From getting pains due to the local anathesia being injected to enduring pain due to the sensitivity of my nerve endings to the procedures, I am experiencing discomfort as I get healed.

Discomfort comes before healing

A simple example of discomfort is when you wear an ill-fitting pair of shoes or when you wear an outfit that is ill-fitting.

Discomfort is the absence of comfort. It is feeling poked. It is feeling anxious.

2020 has been a year that came with a lot of discomfort in the form of change of plans and unplanned events.

It has been a year where we had to deal with our discomforts and bring something worthwhile.

Nowhere to run 🏃

We were stuck in an environment and for those who enjoyed moving around, it was quite discomforting to remain in one environment for a long time.

Discomfort is not always bad.

Sometimes it is blessing.

Sometimes it means Growth.

Sometimes, it is a sign that growth is occuring and that we need to give attention to it.

Growth

Growth is a sign of progress.

Growth in spite of discomfort is maturity.

2020 encouraged me to make use of unfavourable situations without persistenly whining about the situation.

I am grateful that I learnt many important life lessons in 2020.

I am grateful for growth.

I am grateful that I used the discomforts of 2020 well.

I also learnt that God is intentional about our discomforts.

God is always interested in our growth.

God will use our discomforts only if we let Him.

How? 

2 Corinthians 1:3-4  Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort;
 Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.

And

Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to His purpose.

It is one thing to know these verses. It is another to believe them and another to pratice them.

It is only in practice of them that their meaning becomes vivid and personal.

Now to you

How have you handled discomforts?

What has 2020 taught you about discomfort?

What has been your anchor?

Do you believe that your discomfort has a purpose?

Share in the comment section below and if you are enjoying this post, kindly share to others.

Until tommorrow….

Stay well and blessed ❤

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STUCK IN THE PAST: LETTING GO🏜

Preamble (as usual)🐦

I like to ruminate on past events in my life. I love to dig up memories and play them over and over again. It is like a lazy past time. I love to check the places I made mistakes, and make changes from them or probably check my current life to see if I am repeating it. I love to play with thoughts of “what if”, “maybe”, “probably” and bleh blah bleh

The original preamble should have been that this is one of the old post I am sharing now but..there are two extremely notorious ones that are more than a year. They are still on my list looking at me with a look of disappointment 😠😡😑😒 that I have refused to share them. If only they knew that they are so important or maybe I am too lazy to stress my brain yet……

I hope they dont threaten to leave with the original content🤐

ENE🌻

Ene was that kind of girl that put her heart into everything she did. You can call her too sensitive. It could be exciting to be with her but also frightening because she took everything very serious.

The worst part was she rarely ever faced the future.

As her friend I can tell you that I am tired of consoling and advicing her. She thinks I am perfect without horrible events in my past. She thinks I have the most wonderful relationship, family and whatsoever. I love her but she scares me with how much she loves to hold unto people. She is coming, let me stop my narration before she catches me red handed.

“Hibi!” Ene exclaimed

“Why are you exclaiming. You saw me in the morning” I replied as I tried to arrange my books I had thrown on the bed we shared.

“Yes but I was thinking of you throughout the class” Ene said as she laid on the bed in a supine position

“That still sounds weird” I said as I squeezed my forehead in disgust😂😂😂😂😂

“Whatever. You have too much love, that is why mine is like trash” she said as waved her hand at me before putting it on her forehead

Not again!! How did this connect with love?

“What happened again?” I asked trying to sound concerned. I already knew she was going to start telling her tales of woes. I was trying so hard not to roll my eyes and join my forehead🙄🙄

“Well, I have been thinking of what you have been saying, and……” she sighed as if she was trying to hold back tears

“What is wrong?” I was truly concerned as I went close to her on the bed. She was covering her eyes now with her right hand

“Well, I saw Frances today. He was with Ese from the Horticulture department. He looked so happy and that made me realize that I really needed to move on” she was tearing already, I could see the tears staining her face

I was quiet, she talked about Frances to the point I was beyond irritated. I had told her several times to stop wishing anything back with him. He had not bothered to reach out to her for months, it was very obvious he was no longer interested in their relationship.

“He meant his words and I always wonder if I was a nuisance to him” she continued

“Did he tell you that?” I asked

“No. But seeing how he looked so happy today proved that to me. He never smiled that genuinely the one year we dated”

“Well, sometimes people just cant seem to be themselves with some people but find that comfortability with others. If he was polite in breaking up and maintaining that space. It would be best for you to move on”

“You have said that many times, so I know that already. I have finally decided to move on. I dont hate him or whatever but….I find it hard to let go of the memories I shared with people”

“I dont think any normal functioning emotional human finds it easy but it is healthy to know that it is unwise to chase the wind. You cannot catch it, it would run away leaving you more depressed and frustrated” I was sincere in my tone. I had said this to her like so many times but this time I felt she was finally truthful to herself.

“Thank you Hibi” she said she sat up and hugged me, her tears staining my shirt

🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻

My talk🐦

You see…some people are highly sensitive and hold unto to others too much. They place this importance in their mind around particular persons, and even though this is not bad in itself, it can sometimes be very difficult to let go.

Seasons change, and sometimes friends and relationships do too.

We make mistakes, most times we did not plan or hope that they happened.

When we spend so much time on what happened in the past, we keep living there while the world moves without us. It is as if you got stuck while the time machine disappeared.

Memories are beautiful when they inspire you to move forward. That should be their purpose.

N.B There is an actual post on Memories🌈

Life happens everyday. You chose to allow it happen for you or you chose to get swallowed up in regrets.

If it does not inspire you, then you better discard it. If it does not cause innovation, then maybe you should trash it. When the seasons change, you dont have to fight it because it has changed. When the relationships end, if they dont want it, let them go. If you dont want it, let them know (hard, even for me. I most times do the silent method🐢)

The story was spontanoeously written for this post. I could be Ene and I am learning to be Hibi

Accept what has happened and moving on has become a practice for me.

Let me add….

If you really didnt do anything significant to end a relationship, dont bang your head on the wall. It is not because you are horrible or not good enough. It may also not be that the other person is. Priorities and focus change, humans too… That is it.

If you actually did something that was wrong, be apologetic and get better for the next person (if the other person involved has no interest again)

Something else📣

I made a podcast a year ago, and it is actually my first podcast on a topic similar to this. You can check it out on Anchor. I will share the link to that here:

Listen to this episode of my podcast, RoseCast, The Past https://anchor.fm/onyiyechi-roseline-agwu/episodes/The-Past-e2fp85

I feel there should be more to this but I will end here. ……. ….

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