This is the last part of the original series. I am grateful I was able to share it here.
I always wondered what to do with it, and why I even wrote it in the first place but now it has found a place to rest.
I talked about REJECTION last year, and my continuous encouragement is : if you believe you are good at what you are being rejected for, do not give up. It could be quite hard when you feel unappreciated but keep on being a shining star💫
You are not alone
In this part, I did not plan to conclude the series. I just ended it abruptly and never continued it.
NB warning you before you read it
Love.pain.faith
It’s been long. Like forever long. Like three weeks ago.
I miss having my diary because it captured my everday feeling, it was something near. Now I can’t seem to find a replacement.
A lot and lot has happened since I wrote my last poetic day. A lot.
Last last Friday I walked under the extremely burning Sun, my eyes under the glasses that could not still veiw clearly, as I made my way to the food spot to buy the local food, which I enjoyed. Sudan rice.
Discovered a new transport spot and found my way home.
Missed reading my Famished Road. As of now, haven’t read it in two weeks. I have not entered that world yet.
On a Monday, heard a very heart wrenching news of a classmate who passed away. It was so unbelievable and I was tortured with the thoughts that came to my heart. The thought being: I had just thought of her few days ago. In the early morning, I felt an odd feeling of fear before I went to bed. More like I felt an odd prssence and thoughts of Death. I had not prayed about that aspect but just thanked God for my life. If I had known, I would have prayed for her.
It took so long a time to accept reality as her voice and laughter kept ringing in my ears. I was far away from home and wasn’t ever going to see her, that really hurt. I had not seen in years, like two years.
Prayed for my family and asked God for mercy. I wasn’t afraid for myself because I know my purpose and I know I won’t die till I accomplish that. I will continue in my steps till I get there.
I was missing family and getting small talk from them, social media for siblings and calls from parents.
I applied for about two places to apply my writing skills. Got rejected at one and no response from the other. Felt bad but encouraged myself.
I also finished kkahava right before deadline of March ending. My akkajaja book still pending
On Friday, made a trip to hdda’s place. Khf and hff, pogf and her sister. It was fun even though I was really tired. Past time and I was back to the hostel.
Yesterday, Monday. Typed 8 pages of ghhhy4sas (an upublished work) No gas, no cooking. No bus after school. Spent excess and was beyond irritated but not irritated enough to be really angry.
Watched some Mount Zion movies. No reading and just slept off.
This morning my face is long and I am not really in the mood. Listened to a nice audio that encouraged me, and beautiful music in my ears.
Also, I posted on my blog after like three weeks of not posting anything.
Thanking God for provision. He supplies every needs, like everything. And even though my mood is not in line, am grateful for life and for God in my life.
Note for this part
I replaced some English words with alien words. I never thought of that in the past but I felt I needed to keep some English words withheld.
I was unable to finish reading The Famished Road. A joker took it out of the library. I was so sad about that, and I have not seen it since then.
The part where I spoke about not dying was not meant to reflect any form of personal pride but it is a reflection of my belief in who God is in my life and my belief that I have a purpose. It does not mean that I control my existence on earth, God still has the final say in my life.
Thank you for reading the five parts (if you did)
If this is the first part you are reading, kindly start from the first to get the flow of the series.
They stood akwardly, the world around them moving in normal motions.
Chylie palms were stained with sweats.
Was this how guys felt?
He was supposed to say something not look distracted. She was ready to bear her shame and majestically walk away.
It was her first time, she did not want to be the one approached again, not now that she was the first doing the liking. Maybe, he was her true crush. She had never told anyone that she had never had a crush, they would tease her. She just went with the flow and agreed as they spoke since she was the queen of the block. The queen of beauties who was also nice and sweet (as they said).
Sometimes she wished she were a boy. Not a girl who had many rules made to organise her life, she usually rolled her eyes in disgust when she thought of that.
“I am sorry, am I making you uncomfortable? You have not yet replied” she said as calmly as she could, hoping that would make him feel at least interested to replying.
He was so nervous, he felt like peeing. Not in front of her though. Why was she talking like that?
He never really carerd about being noticed or liked. He just knew he like someone before, then stopped, then lost interest in the whole thing. He had actually come to enjoy his space, not looking out for any princess on a unicorn.
He almost felt like no female would interest him again, maybe he would just buy a dog and be his papa for life. When he told his friends this, they laughed and mocked him. They told him he was crazy, and he became like this just because one girl told him no.
Maybe they were right, he was too passionate and put his emotions before his head. Maybe, he was actually afraid to like somebody, he was afraid to have heart races and merry-go-round cycling in his brain. He wanted to master his emotions, and the best way was to shut them up. He could try and still save a dying cat.
Maybe that cat stood in front of him..
What was he going to answer her?
Please leave me alone. Please!!
She could not hear that
Opom had asked her why Tay, of all awkward people to like. Why Tay?!
She had only smiled. There was no specific reason.
She just liked him.
He was cute and…….
Maybe he reeked of rejection. Like an abandoned teddy. She wanted to sun dry him and become the Sun that made him smile.
After much pestering, her best friend knew to leave her alone. Chylie did what she wanted to do.
He looked like he wanted to finally speak.
Hurry up bro, let me know what it feels like to get rejected.
She looked too patient, and that unsettled him. Was she that into him? He just rememberd that he had not shaved his scattered face in a week. He was not that careless, he was only careless this week.
She can hate if she want, I was not looking for love
“First, thank you. Second, no. I am not in the place for any of what you are asking for. I am still a bear hibernating”
He noticed that her countenance fell, he could do nothing about that. He had already missed The Running Man, the Pringles he bought was going to waste.
“It’s okay” she lied
“But you thought of that now. Don’t you want to think about it? Or at least give me your number”
She felt like a beggar. Did she like him that much to be shameless? With his scattered cute face
He had few contacts, he was content with that. Only his landlady was the female contact.
“Ummm.. Am sorry. I cannot do that either”
He was already tired. If he had known, he would have bought a bottle of Sprite and eat it with the Pringles. Maybe share some of it with her.
No again?
She wasted her highlighter. She was disappointed, not because of the highlighter but because he had said no twice.
It stung. She wanted to faint from embarrassment.
The Sprite in her bag was already warm. If he had Pringles they could share.
He sat down and opened his bag to reveal the Original flavour of Pringles. They could eat it as their parting meal.
“Do you mind sharing?”
“No. I have Sprite. We could share”
She sat down beside him on the pavement that the tree had destroyed with its stem.
They could eat it as their parting meal, and she could use the chips to choke down the tears in her eyes.
After their meal, they smiled and parted
Pringles and Sprite
No and sighs
Rejection, it hurts
But don’t take it too far
A parting meal is not bad
It was refreshing to experience it. Now she could be more considerate, she had always been. Maybe more considerate. She still liked him and hoped he came to like her before she lost interest.
At least he could not stop her from stalking his social media handles that he rarely posted on. Or he could not stop her from. .. .thinking about him.
It was refreshing to know how it felt to really like someone.
She brushed the stubborn tears that threatened to fall as her sneakers carried her fast to her room where she could explode better
He respected her courage but felt relieved to be finally left alone. All he thought of was to get the recap of The Running Man.
He would check if she had sent him friend requests and accept then, that would show her he had no hard feelings.
Maybe, next time he would be interested.
“Lets go wash our shoes” he said as he made for his motor bike.
The Sun was lazily setting down as both went in opposite directions
Sad Teddy
I dont like when people make too much out of rejection. Before I am misunderstood, some scenarios have been really bad but let us talk about a normal scenario.
If you told someone your interest and they said No. Why dont you accept no? Why think you could try and try and try and try and try and try and emek egg dkekk
Okay. . …
Let me move on.. .. .
If you were with someone and after a while, they said no. You tried to know why and they still said no. You tried to make adjustment and they still said no. Why do jausskkwojebdksksm.?
Let me move on.
You applied for something and they said No. You tried again and they said no. Why do you ajishdsso?
Forgive me 🦄
Let me move on
Rejection is for your good, and it is not always because you deserve better. It could be because what you were wanting was not for you, it was for someone else. 🐵
Rejection is an eye opener to develop yourself, it is not always because you were hated or you were too good to be true. It could be what you wanted was too good for you. 🐡
Rejection will happen because it is part of existing. It will happen to everyone. So dont think you are special because it happened to you or maybe happening to you. 🦃
Rejection does not mean you may turn out better or the ones who rejected you will regret.🐽
Rejection is a pill that can leave you better or bitter. Depends on which side you decided to swallow. 🕷
The notion I am tired tired of hearing is people insinuating that those who did the rejection were so horrible without most times knowing which scenario was which. Everyone cannot be chosen at the same time, if not what would be the use of timing and employment. 🌐
Sometimes you are rejected because you are loved. The person doing the rejecting may actually truely love you, and knows that what you are seeking is not what you need. It could be that you need to work on yourself and the love you seek is not where you are searching. You need to take more steps. 👡👞👟👠
So please dont be bitter when you are rejected. Don’t hold a grudge that was not necessary. Few people will believe in your dreams (that is well known). Dont plan to revenge (it may be unnecessary)
Search and check what you could do better. Someone, others are waiting for you out there. You stopped at the wrong station, you have to move on to the next 🚇🚂🚃🚆🚅🚄🚈🚎🚊🚋🚌
N. B To the one doing the rejecting, it takes nothing to be nice. Let the rejection be remembered with a smile that showed your kindest affection. Whether single or cooperate, it could be you. Dont feel guilty if you have to reject, sometimes you just have to but let your words spark more hope than utter rejection. 🏭🏀
Yellow Teddy
STORY OF THE BEAR
I took this picture a month ago,and the bear is not mine. I dont fancy teddy bears. It looked so lonely drying under the hot Sun. The owner had washed it. I took it because I loved how it looked not knowing I was going to write a post titled REJECTION.
After getting the topic, I realized that this teddy would fit in the description😊😊. So teddy made its way here.
I actually have one mini, tini teddy that is cute to squeeze in my palm but I left it tucked away, far away from me. I dont have it near, and I still dont fancy teddies. Mostly big ones 😂😂🐻🐻
I almost forgot that I had not posted in a week. It is almost two weeks. This is what happens when you jusggle living in two planets 😂😂👽👽.
Please dont forget to like, comment, share and follow my space. No specific date for posting.. ..
Let me leave this verse here
He has made everything beautiful in it’s time. ..
Ecclesiastes 3:11 (paraphrased)
Thank you.. ….💃💃
Okay. … .. I have also gotten rejected many times. Also done the rejecting. All have been inspirations
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