However before you go too far in your sad thoughts
It is good that you know
That you are cool
Especially if you are not causing harm to others
But that does not mean you should harm yourself either
Maybe its the way you walk or talk or your stutter or your hand movements or the way you laugh or the way you raise your eyebrows trying to be funny or maybe it is just the way you try to express yourself
Maybe it is one of these that make you feel unfitting for many crowds
Or maybe it is your mind playing games on you
Maybe you actually have a crowd that accepts you
Only that you have been blinded by the ones you want to fit into that you fail to realize that you do not belong everywhere
Maybe its because you do not realize that you have a reason attached to your life
Genesis 1:31 And God saw every thing that He had made, and, behold, it was very good. And the evening and the morning were the sixth day. KJV
Some of the other quirky things I do aside my laughter, how I stare, extract myself from others (😂😂), how I talk fast (😂😂), my facial expressions…..
I can be paradox about things I appreciate.
I appreciate good compliments but at the same time I am shy to receive them.
I expect yet do not expect them
Or
I am surprised when I get them
I appreciate certain humans but sometimes I will rather be alone than spend a lot of time with them.
Once-in-a blue moon long hours visits.
I appreciate constructive corrections yet do not know how I will respond to them when they come because I try as much as possible to be balanced and in the right lane.
No mistakes eh
I can care so much and not care at all…
I’ll stop…
I have been priviledged to meet people who are similar to me and it has been comforting to talk in the same language.
Alien language
As I weed out the negative aspects, I am also learning to accept that the quirks which I possess are…..
Artistic..
I actually wanted to write Beautiful
Have you felt like an odd person?
If you haven’t, this post may seem quite odd to you. However, odd or not…
If you are regular on my blog, you will know that this section is for initial ramblings before the main post.
I have written several posts with a similar theme to today’s post but this post is still unique.
As a content creator, I am sensitive about timings and creating contents that would pass the message I need to pass.
Therefore, in respect to the 14th of which I have seen many advertisements, this post is purposely direceted towards the theme of the 14th.
I am not a fan of the 14th but it is interesting to watch the usual reaction to it.
Lets slide in…..
Dm?
L.O.V.E
This word is one of the most versatile word. It is used to describe preference for both living and non-living things.
It is appreciated in different ways and is not limited by a particular understanding of it.
They say love makes the world go round
Love can be described as emotions and it can be appreciated as actions.
Love is interpreted differently by different people
Love is a main theme in the Bible
Remember: God is love (1John 4:16)
Love can be defined to suite personal preference.
Repeating myself
What is love to you?
Falling in love
This term is very popular in the social culture.
It has been used in books, movies, animations and songs.
Fall-in-love
What does it mean to fall in love?
Is love a ditch?
If you fall in love will you break your head or limbs?
Just asking. What bone breaks?
Falling in love is a process of discovering and acknowledging special feelings for an individual. These feelings are often times romantic and are directed towards having a specific romantic relationship.
And if they are not reciporcated then you find your way🙂
Do you want to fall in love?
Or have you fallen?
How to do it
Here is where I give you the way you fall in love.
I be no romance expert but these are my observations.
When I be meditating on this topic, there were many things I thought I would say before giving you the tips but now I refrain
1. Fall in love without doing anything
It is not your fault. It just happened. This is what they call love at first sight or love at later sight. In this category, the person catches your attention and you dont care about anything else.
Including redlights🌋
The person caught your heart and you be running with it.
This is the type they say is blind
2. Fall in love with a physical characteristics
I did not want to use characteristics but I did anyway.
This one is about being in love with:
Physique
Smile or laughter
Voice
Mannerisms
Charisma
Charm
Attitude to life
That aspect of the person sparks something in you that you have no courage to spark on your own. They make you realize that there is something you wish you have but then they have it and you like it so you like them because they have it.
You get?
The thing be that if you remain in love with them for these things, when they lose it, you lose the love as well.
Conditional eh?
3. Fall in love for fun
Teenage kind of love that often ends at the school gate after graduation.
Nothing much to say.
It often happens because of boredom or pressure.
4. Fall in love with intentions
This be very intentional.
Either because of:
Business
Career goals
Ideal family type
Societal status
You find them who be common ground and fit your criteria for your personal goals and you fall in love.
Interest is the key word
5. Fall in love because it is God’s will for you
Now this is the crux.
And yes..this be real.
Falling in love with a person because you know that God wants you to be with them is another way to fall in love.
The only category that will not be here is 3. You can see elements of other categories here.
Falling in love this way means you do not share your heart anyhow but you intentionally share it with the perosn God has allowed you to.
Falling safe
How to know God’s will
Through prayers, peace and confirmations.
God confirms His words
Knowing God’s will is necessary for daily life and the way we know God’s will in mudane issue is the way we know God’s will in serious issues.
This is another topic for another day (I mentioned that in the last post)
However, if you haven’t checked the last post, I will recommend you to do so as I shared links that will help you answer this part.
Falling in love is not something we are completely unable to control. It is true that we may have a quick click with someone for little reasons but we have the ability to control how we respond to these emotions.
If the person we fall in love with is harmful to our lives or disregards core values we uphold then we can and should let go. We dont insist to remain because we are in ‘love’
Love is not foolish
Love is not blind.
Love can be given from a distance.
When we do not tie our emotional stability to a human being, we are able to make clear decisions even when it is tough. The problem is that some of us are emotionally dependent and this in turn affects our expression and response to love.
To be emotionally attached when it is not in the appropriate context only spirals to heartaches and if handled poorly, leads to heart scars.
As we trust God for other things, our emotional life should be entrusted to God as well.
Psalms 139:1-4 O LORD, thou hast searched me, and known me.
Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off.
Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways.
For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O LORD, thou knowest it altogether. (KJV)
If God knows us perfectly, then He can handle our emotional life perfectly.
Accompainments
To The Heartbreaks That Never Happened is intentionally directed towards dealing with emotional attachments, disappointments and aches. It has been revised with new sections.
There is a Podcast which is an audio version of this post and it contains extras not contained in this post.
Your questions, comments and responses are welcomed in the comment section.
Last year, I simply did a brief review in the appreciation post but because of the uniqueness of this year for me and my plaforms, I am doing a seperate review post.
If you are new here, this will give you an overall view of this blog for this year.
I hope you enjoy reviewing with me 😊
DEEPERLOOK
More posts were made this year and I tried to have at least two to three posts every month (was more than that).
The quarantine played a huge role in redirecting my focus and I am super grateful for that.
Today’s post is the 270th post with approximately 110 posts for this year.
I did two major series: CAVEWOMAN (5 parts) that ended with a short video and Blogmas 2 (25 parts).
This year, many books were shared. Some for purchase and others for free. They included:
A poetry collection
1 short fiction
1 collection of short stories
1 updated collection of short stories
1 non-fiction
2 inspirational minis
1 tract
The most popular download was the Non-fiction: 10 LESSONS FROM MY PARENTS.
To get more insight on all the books, you can check the BOOK SECTION for more information.
This year, the art section of this blog was created with options regarding digital or physical abstract arts.
Also, for the later half of this year, I created all the posters and images used for the posts written.
Previously, I used mainly images downloaded from the internet with few times making them. However this year, making the posters helped me to be more creative with the process.
Posters were also created and the most popular is Psalm 23 posters which you can find at the lower part of this page.
To explore the available art on this blog, click ART PAGE to be redirected.
I did more experiments with my page and learnt much more.
Despite being a free site, I was able to learn many things over the years and I am so grateful for the process.
This year, the contact button was updated with a new section of this blog to become active soon and that is the section of book review for books that are not mine.
Currently, the book review section is for books I have written or shared but another section will be opened for books I have read that will be relevant to the tone of this blog.
If you are curious or interested, click the CONTACT button to find out more.
This year the stats were higher than last year, almost twice the number.
Plus I had my first overall 1000 likes and I celebrated my 6th year annivesary on this platform.
ROSECAST
This year, I was more consistent than previous years plus the podcast page was added to this blog.
The podcasts had a new feature included as well: Posters
There were three series done, each of them with subsequent parts as well.
I was more intentional with the podcasts and had a great time making them.
The listens for this year were approximately 5-8 times what I started with, with DON’T RUSH being the highest.
To check it out, simply click PODCAST PAGE to be redirected and to also get the main link.
There is a complimentary podcast which you can listen to via the Podcast page or directly through this LINK
MOVING FORWARD
I trust God to do better next year and to finally upgrade this blog platform.
Major changes to Rosecast may still take more time but I am willing to make more little changes.
I am hoping to still have you here in the next coming years and to have you experience more growth with me.
I chose to be grateful for the progress made even though I wished to have made more.
Your support on this platform means a lot and you can either do that by liking a post, commenting, sharing a post, subscribing or following this post and importantly, purchasing a book or artwork.
Your support means a lot and I really appreciate it in anyway it comes.
I pray to keep sharing posts that are insightful, inspiring, encouraging, educative and uplifting.
Cheers to a New year in advance 🎊🎉
God bless you……
N.B As from 1st January, the hash tag for this blog will change.
Evolution is the process of evolving. It is the process of transformation.
Arts used in this series are part of DISCOVERY a project I started in August on Instagram. A collection of abstract arts with different titles despicting my thoughts on certain matters.
Some of them would be shared here, and the rest can be found on instagram via my profile onyirose12.
This series will be concluded with a documentary that would be shared here via Youtube.
Hoping to have you watch it then.
MEANING
A cavewoman is one who has lived in a shell of personality for as long she has known.
Emotions differ and unless a person is apathic, our emotions depend on triggering factors, good or bad.
She is one who has allowed her emotions control her perception and though her emotions are not always wrong, they have not always been reliable.
For some of us, we are able to let go of emotions and do what needs to be done.
In summary your emotions rarely sway you.
For some of us, our emotions tug at us with ferociousity until we either win or yield.
It is a consistent struggle to either yield to what we are feeling or do what needs to be done.
The thoughts often move like this:
What would the person think?
How would the other person feel?
What would happen afterwards?
How would I deal with this situation in the best way possible?
Did I do well enough?
Did I do bad?
What perception has been registered about me?
How do I coordinate myself in such a way that I do not loose myself in the process?
These thoughts are constant in almost every relationship that the cavewoman experiences.
They are the dilemma that swirl teasingly no matter hard they tried to be ignored
Noticing the tiniest expressions, the movement of the hands, the sigh of the lips, the tone in the voice, the response to questions, all of these details and more are often observed most times without sharing but analzying within.
The desire to keep emotions at the right place is a consistent concern for the cavewoman and hence her response to the outside is often an irony.
If she tells you everything she observed yet refused to say, it would be a surprise.
The muddling of emotions but the concern of perception may make the cavewoman share her emotions in a muddled way.
It often comes out differently than what you may expect.
Remaining hidden also involves the beauty of controlling noise in the enviroment. When unable to control noise, it can trigger and set her ablaze.
However, in life there are many things that we cannot always control.
Many
Cavewoman or Cavew(hu)man
I am one used to solitude. It affords me the opportunity to filter my thoughts, my relationships and create a balance on my decisions.
This does not mean that I do not value human relationship, communication or even company.
I do.
I do a lot.
A lot
Recently, I have been researching more and discovered certain things that have explained certain things.
The truth is that nobody can fully discover themselves or another person. The only who has that ability is God.
He searches the heart.
If you have never taken a personality test especially the one made by Meyer and Briggs, I encourage you to do so. I have taken it more than five times and got the same result.
The result explained many things, and described me very well.
Amazing right?
And then I also took another test and it confirmed many other things.
Well, I know some people may think that the tests are unreliable. However, if they describe you better than another human has done before, I do not think there is a harm analyzing it.
Discovering yourself helps you understand why you respond to certain things.
Why certain relationships are more important to you and others are not.
Why you have certain values and why they are important to you.
Why you have the goal you have and why you are willing to achieve it.
It allows you understand why certain things have happened the way they did and why you responded that way.
As I continue in my journey of discovering who God has made me to be, I am willing to let go of things that have not allowed me to grow.
It also a journey of coming to a place of honesty with myself and the ways I have interacted with humans in the world.
This interaction is not only physical but includes the dilemma I have had to face when presenting myself.
The conflict I have had to face because I allowed certain notions grow in my mind and thus created internal environments that did not allow me be completely sincere and honest with myself.
In order to appreciate what God has been doing, I have to accept the corrections He has been giving and forgive myself and allow myself to heal from wounds inflicted by others and myself.
In this journey, I am learning that I will lose hope if I do not hang unto God.
God has been the best anchor and would always be. Amen
This process of evolution I am going through is because God started it and He will finish it.
Psalms 139:14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. (King James Version)
If you were wondering the results of the test, here they are:
INFJ and a HSP
I mentioned HSP alot, it means a highly sensitive person. As much as labels are not my thing, understanding your personality helps you interact with your society, yourself and do better.
With the Holy Spirit helping me, I am able to allow my weakness and strength be submitted to God’s will. Amen.
To get the artwork used in this series, check the ART page under the digital option.
Or better still, you can go directly to the Digital option HERE.
Some of the topics I have shared appear repeated. This is not because I do not have topics to share, but because there is always more no matter how many times it has been shared.
This is way of exploring the diversity I am experiencing as they happen and also affords you, the reader the opportunity to experience it too.
2020 has taught many things. One of which is life is very fragile…
I have thought more intentionally about life and death this year and God has been faithful to help me through the stages and He will keep helping me. Amen.
The Bible in multiple passages talked about the fragility of life, however it is only as one meditates and observes happenings, do we realize the truths in the word of God.
James 4, 13 Come now [and pay attention to this], you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to such and such a city, and spend a year there and carry on our business and make a profit.” 14 [g]Yet you do not know [the least thing] [h]about what may happen in your life tomorrow. [What is secure in your life?] You are merely a vapor [like a puff of smoke or a wisp of steam from a cooking pot] that is visible for a little while and then vanishes [into thin air]. 15 Instead [i]you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and we will do this or that.” (AMP)
With this, it is important to know where our values and purpose for life lies in. If it is not planted and rooted in God, where else is it?
Matthew 6:19-21 Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal:
But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal:
For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also. (KJV)
It is important to God’s will for your life so that you may walk in that will. Do not live haphazardly. Live with a purpose.
Ephesians 5, 15 Therefore see that you walk carefully [living life with honor, purpose, and courage; shunning those who tolerate and enable evil], not as the unwise, but as wise [sensible, intelligent, discerning people], 16 [b]making the very most of your time [on earth, recognizing and taking advantage of each opportunity and using it with wisdom and diligence], because the days are [filled with] evil. 17 Therefore do not be foolish and thoughtless, but understand and firmly grasp what the will of the Lord is. (AMP)
We cannot do God’s will if we do not allow Him to lead us in all our activities.
Psalms 90:12 So teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom. (KJV)
Accomapainments
I will share a podcast that will highlight today’s topic.
Do not forget that you can easily listen on this blog via the Podcast page.
Share this prayer with me:
God, I thank you for my life. I am grateful for life you have given me. Help me to know your will and to walk in it everyday. Help me stand the test of time. Help me walk in your truth. And may my treasure continue to rest in You. For in Jesus name I pray. Amen
N. B I would like your interpretation of the poem in the comment section.
As an introvert and HSP, space is too fundamental to get myself together. I crave for space because it allows me to refresh and think.
Intrusion from outside bad
I mostly love to have enough time and space to air my thoughts in order to process the multiple motions going inside my mind.
(If you read the last post, you would understand).
Sometimes, space is more important to me that conversing with others because for me to converse with others, I need to be in the right place myself.
You get?
Therefore, sometimes I prefer to stay away from others but unfortunately I cannot avoid or prevent others from coming to me and sometimes that can ruin the whole purpose of me seeking isolation.
You get?
A Hub for creativity
As much as some of these may not be a favourite because of the whirling and swirling emotions, they have also been times of reflections and creativity.
I often make unique things during these moments because I pour my emotion and concentration into what I am creating.
More like a getaway
And because of how precious these moments are, most of what I come up with cannot be recreated. They instead serve as flashback or statements of recovery.
This topic popped in my heart two days ago and on that day, I was not feeling sunshine. I did not want to write a post immediately because I did not want to write from that point, I wanted to write after I was better.
I had planned to make it a series but……
How do you feel?
Happy?
Angry?
Sad?
Tired?
Frustrated?
Apathic?
Hopeful?
Peaceful?
Another word?
How do you do?
When someone asks you that question, how do you respond?
I personally answer with the same response unless I need to share further details which I rarely do.
We all have the answers we truly want to share. We know how we do.
How do you do?
When it rains
I love the rainy seasons.
I love the smell of rain water on mud or sand.
I love the gentle breeze and the droplets of water from leaves on a tree.
I love the cloudy atmosphere after rain has fallen.
I love the tenderness of the moments after rain.
I love the rainy season, maybe I was born in that time. When the rain begins, I put in heart that a new year is around for me.
As I stepped out that morning to get some groceries, the warmth of the rainy morning comforted me. It felt so beautiful and I felt relieved.
You see, God is in the Sunshine. God is in the Rain. God is the warm times. God is in the cold. God is in the tempest. God is in the stillness. God is the fire and God is in the mist. God is everywhere. (O. R. A)
As I walked on the moist ground, my heart reflected on the recent turbulence in the world and how it was overshadowing the pandemic and how everything was mashing up into a no-hope situation, my heart was comforted with God’s words. God kept comforting me to keep looking up to Him.
The reason why this seemed difficult was because I was beginning to focus on what was happening and it troubled my heart. It can be hard to keep my spirit up but that is not my job to do. It is the Holy Spirit who keeps my spirit up and unless I focus on Him, my spirit will be plagued by worries, fears and doubts.
My spirit was comforted as I walked back to my residence, God had used the morning to comfort my spirit.
It is more than a feeling
Living by feelings is so stresful. I can tell you because I know how it feels.
As a HSP, I know all the stress that comes with having your senses and intuition very sharp. It can become such a huge internal conflict, sometimes it is too heavy to bear.
A lot of things did not make sense to me and others but as I continued to understand myself, I could associate all of what a HSP entails.
Good for me I discovered after I was more matured to handle the meaning 😂😂.
However, regardless of that label, true satisfaction comes from remaining in God’s word and trusting in His promises. That is comforting to anyone who will believe.
After every Blue
Comes a Bloom (do not ask me where I got it from. It rhymed😁😁)
With comfort in my spirit, I was better again.
Another blue day may come but I am learning that I can overcome every time because I have the Holy Spirit in me.
TEMPEST on cardstock
This was done a month ago and shared on my other social media platforms. I did it when I was really feeling troubled. I did not like the outcome intially but I later came to appreciate it.
It reminds me of Jesus calming the storm in Mark 4:39.
And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace, be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm.
Mark 4:39 GNT TRANSLATION
I wanted to share…..
The thought came late and I could not fix anything quick 😐😐
I wanted to share something today but I may still share later if I am able to come up with something.
It would be another gift like WOIFY or even better 😇😇
On an even day, on an even month, on an even year, I get to call a day my birthday 🎈🎈 (now you know why even numbers are special 😁😁)
Okay… Pause…. I talked about Comfort Food on my Food blog.
Do check it out for more.
Q. M 4
❤❤
Months ago, I shared this poetry collection. One of the poems I really love ❤.
Q. M 4 is the last of the collection. The rest can be found in the Books Section.
And if you do not mind, check ROSECAST or the Podcast page on this blog to listen to the most recent.
I will give thanks and praise to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well.
Psalm 139:14 (AMP TRANSLATION)
How do you feel now?
…………………..
I pray you recieve the comfort you need for today.
I pray that if you are feeling blue, you will bloom.
I pray that you experience the warmth of God’s love.
For me, today will be solemn and reflective while I bask in God’s continuous kindness.
I should have probably said more but this is all that comes to heart as I type.
To my new subscribers, thank you 💝. If you are new, kindly subscribe too.
Honestly, I was looking for an appropriate title to give this post because the complete review for this Book will be revealed on 15th.
Inspiration
This poetry collection was inspired by life events.
They were poems written at different periods, and expressed emotions that carried different weights.
I started writting specific poems to God in 2015, without having a main frame or specific title for all of them.
In 2018, I started the Quiet Memoirs collection and as I progressed, everything formed properly.
Intention
As I continued compiling poems, it became more interesting to notice the flow of the poems, and how I was able to dig into my emotions and reproduce them in words as much as I could.
Sometimes feelings are hard to express
My main intention for compiling this poem is to share it. I do not want to hide it but share it.
Yes😊
15th April 2020
On this date, the complete review will be shared and the book will be available for purchase.
I share reviews on books I have written on a different page. You can find that in BOOK in the menu button.
From there, you can find links to either purchase them or download free editions.
I am still learning a lot, and many experiences have been borne out of this learning process.
I share many of them on this blog, with the hope that as I address them, you who reads will be edified and encouraged.
Quiet Memoirs
This collection of poems was borne in 2018. I knew I was going to make more but it was in 2019 that the full form of what this collection would look like became real to me.
Volume 1 was an introduction
Volume 2 addressed sad emotions borne out of loneliness and processing the world from an outsider view.
Volume 3 addressed heartbreaks, imaginary or real.
Volume 4 …………..
To get more information on where they can be gotten, kindly check the BOOKS option in the menu button on blog.
Quiet Memoirs 4
This collection will be released on April 15 2020.
Review of this collection will be shared during the week (maybe Saturday).
A sneak at the appearance😊
Two cover options
Hopefully, more projects will be shared this year.
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Until Saturday (11th, for the review) and 15th for the release, have a blessed day.
Deeperlook 